Er.

Ent the Ant reached a dead end
And Ent the Ant had a great dent
So said Ent the Ant in the end
"I am, after all, an ant named Ent."

Yes, from this self-made tongue twister that I'm hopelessly addicted to, you can see how bored I am. xDD

I just watched the original Kelly Clarkson's Because of You video and it was super super sad. O_O *sigh* What's wrong with human relationships man? xDD Oh, then after I watched a Sims 2 version (Youtube) that was made beautifully but also equally sad. *sigh*.

Oh nevermind, let's forget about the sad things and stay happy. xDD YEA!

I'm going Singapore/Temasek Poly! ^_^ Regardless of PSS/CSS, because I want to challenge myself for a higher standard at PSS. Go Angela! Jiayou! :D

I miss strawberry Pocky. xDD Ahas, I'm so random. Composed a new song and I shall go type it in! ^_^

There was a time where I really just want to disintegrate and disappear and just stop blogging 'cos this is where I posted nearly everything related to CSS.

It's Over.
At least, CSS 2's over for me. But I wish all the contestants good luck on getting nearer to their dream. Gambate!

It'll be quite useless to express how much disappointment I feel. Maybe (or actually 100%) I didn't give my best in terms of gaining experience to overcome stage fright and sing in front of a crowd or improve my singing skills, but I definitely equipped myself with a passion for music.

Of course, I can go what if I had sang a slow song instead of High High High and all that, but it will be utterly helpless.
But still, let me wallow in self pity for just a while more.
Why can't Poly students join CSS?
Why must I opt for a more superstar-centered PSS when all I want to do is simply just to share my music with a larger crowd and touch more lives?

大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的没有主张
带我到没有爱情的地方哦
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的失去方向
带我到没有爱情的地方

As much as I want to let go and move on, it's really not that easy.

Will I really get in next time if I give in my all?
I'm really afraid.
Will it be a stupid thing to do if I join JC for CSS, then join Poly for my desired course?
Yes, of course.
Suddenly I feel like being a stupid person and doing just that.

闭上眼让泪水滑落
此刻你已真的永远离开我
在另外一个没有我的世界
自由的走

大雨

大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的没有主张
带我到没有爱情的地方哦
大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的失去方向
带我到没有爱情的地方

Here it comes.

This is it.

For the past year my life has revolved around Campus Superstar & the whole of my life has revolved around music. And tomorrow says it all.
Hahas, can you imagine what would happen if I got in and before every result show I post this same post? xDD

But anyways, tomorrow is more than just important to me. I really hate to think of what would happen to me if I don't get in tomorrow. But of course, putting aside all the pessimistic thoughts, I'm pretty excited. After 1 yr of anticipation, it's finally here.

Of course I would be lying if I say "Oh, just ping chang xin and go and sing, nevermind can get in or not." It matters a lot to me because only by becoming top 20 can I embark on a journey of sharing my music with more people and hopefully, the world.

Yes, there will be other chances, but tomorrow matters to me in more ways than one. Frankly, I do not deny that I have a tinge of envy for the Campus Superstar's fame (especially during the first few months when I decided to enter the contest and CSS 1 was still airing), but I've come a long way (muchos more months) to realise that I do love singing and sharing my music with the rest of the world. It's become my dream and part of me, part of my everyday life.

Maybe I'm making the CSS competition sound more serious than it seems to be (to me) because I do not take it as merely a stage to gain experience of live performances (though that is also a big factor as I value live performances more than CD music to better bring out each song) but I want to give my very very best. I want to bring out the best music I can to the world. I hope for every one of my performances to be enjoyable in one way or another.

And yet, I lack confidence, and in turn, I lack the drive. I'm afraid to know the result because it matters so much. Actually I find the world quite ironical. xD

But my friends and family will be there to cheer me on, and for that few minutes, the stage is mine. They have confidence in me and all the more I should have confidence in myself. ^_^ Angela, you can do it!

Just take a deep breath, hold the mike & sing.

(Oh, and this may be a bit late - oh wait, it's still 8:58, the boys haven't started singing yet - but good luck to all the guy contestants xDD)

Thank you.

YEAH, BRING SATURDAY ON!
Yeah, finally I'm in one of my most confident moments.
After one year of struggles and dreams, BRING SATURDAY ON.

Thanks to:
Uma
Michelle
Rebekah
Wei Wen
Eugenia
Biru
Syafiqah

Thank you very very much for going there to support me. ^_^ It's really really appreciated and it really really means a lot to me (which really cannot be described in mere words on my blog). I'll truly do my best and stop all my whining and indecisiveness for you gals. xDD YOU'RE THE BEST! :D

Also thanks to:
Szehong
Adeline
Joanna

It's okay if you're not going, must remember to jiayou for me every second at home okay? xDD And Joanna, hope you have a nice holiday! xDD Buy a mike ornament as a souvenir for me or something, okay? xDD (j/k).

THANK YOU EVERYONE!
xoxo Angela

I went on a Google Image Search for I forgot what reason, but anyways, let me present my mascot of the moment! ^_^ Taddaaa...


Yesh, the four leaf clover! Haha, I needed some luck really badly so I decided to paste pictures of the lucky clover all over my blog. Prepare to be green!


A lovely cartoon version of it. Oh, and did you know that the audition day is also St Patrick's Day in the US? Hahas, so qiao, rights?


And look at the mascot's mascot! Muawhahaha. I never thought I'll be obsessed with Carebears again. Hoho. I have the sudden urge to buy one big good luck carebear and squish it every day. Is that scary or what?


This was really lovely! ^_^ Oh, and clovers don't only represent good luck to me, they also represent love x4! ^_^ Check out the heart shaped leaves (it might be clearer in the cartoon version)


AWWW! The stuffed version with a kawaii cap! Wants! Muawhaha. And the non-cappy one looks very cute too! :D


Check out this four leaf clover shaped fountain! xDD It's really for sale, you know! XDD

<-- I'll end of with a cute little pixel of the bear from here. ^_^ Jiayou Angela!

Good Luck Bear is loaded with luck and he loves to share it with anyone who can use a little more good fortune. You'll almost always find this bear with a big smile on his face. Even the symbol on his tummy is lucky—a four-leaf clover!
Caring Mission:	He shares his good luck with others.
Symbol:	His four-leafed clover symbolizes the luck that's always with him.
Personality:	Happy and self-confident.
Character Quirk:	He can make broken machines work with a snap of his fingers.
Color:	Green.
Best Friend:	Funshine Bear
Relationship Challenge:	Cheer Bear—for some reason, his good luck doesn't work when she's around.
Motto:	Lucky for you I'm here! (haha, so ego.)

Quoted from:
http://www.care-bears.com/CareBears/html/about/goodluck.html

Go Go Angela!

If I say that everything's going well or even fine, I wouldn't even be half saying the truth."

Yeah, everything's pretty bad. o_O It seems I still can't handle criticism well enough. Am I THAT pampered? I mean, I'm not rich, you know. o_O But somehow I have this pride that's killing me. o_O

I mean, previously those already very little that held my faith that my singing was of some substance are now all proven wrong. The only thing I have left is my passion, which I deem should be enough to get me through, or I'll probably have thrown in the towel or basket or what there is in my room already.

Anyways, I gotta try improve on my singing.
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! CANNOT GIVE UP SO EASILY.

Ok, so my voice is airy and lacks power. And I over pronounce my "s. There's nothing you can't do without practice. You must jiayou! NI YI DING XING!

IT'S THIS SATURDAY.
GO GO ANGELA!

Excited.

Next week will be the start of a new and exciting chapter of my life. I am actually quite scared that I won't pass (a far cry from last yr when I was so absolutely sure I can at least get into Top 8). My friends and family's comments have opened my eyes to certain things I've never noticed earlier (regarding my singing), but I hope it won't in turn close other doors.

So, anyways, I'M READY FOR NEXT SAT. BRING IT ON. I'll be staying there the whole time, even though I might be quite depressed/sadistic (is this being optimistic? xDD) when hearing everyone else sing. Imagine, there'll be 2000+ ppl! :D Even if I eventually don't get in, it's actually quite nice to see the potential contestants, hohos.

But never-the-less, JIAYOU JIAYOU! ^_^
Put your hear and soul into it, and there's nothing you can;'t do.

App. Form! ^_^

The la-de-da-de-dum lovely application form is up! ^_^ Haha, I'm happily filling it out, but I released the only talents I have are singing and webdesigning. Hoho. Is that a good or bad thing? XDD

I DID NOT KNOW I WAS SUPPOSED TO ATTACH A PHOTO. Haha, now they can see my pimply face. O_O Argh. xDD

Jiayou jiayou! ^_^

千年之恋-F.I.R
Fly Away - Liang Jing Ru